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Wednesday, May 20, 2015

All Is Not What It Seems

Wood at Mount Vernon
There are days I think I know what I'm all about. I think I know what I'm doing and why I am here.

 Yesterday was not one of those days.

 Sure, it started out fine, then things began to go adrift.

 Later it seemed as if nothing made sense anymore.


I think I've wrapped myself inside of...

 Something.

 There are days I feel caged.


 But when you build your own cage, who do you blame?

 There are days I want to just fly away, head downriver and see what is there.


But I know I'll stay on the bank, to try and flourish where I've been planted.

 Perhaps I planted myself.


I think I have always drifted with the tide. I don't drive life, it drives me.

 I think.

 I tell myself that my spirit remains free.


But if you look closely, it's an illusion.

Still and all, I try to see the beauty.

It was a bad day, but this too shall pass.

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32 comments:

  1. PrairieAdventureMay 20, 2015 at 4:37 AM

    Hang in there Sarge.

    https://youtu.be/csEzTwKemwY

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    1. OldAFSargeMay 20, 2015 at 4:48 AM

      I shall endeavor to persevere.

      Great clip, great movie.

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  2. (not necessarily your) Uncle SkipMay 20, 2015 at 6:03 AM

    Oh... man!
    Do I know that feeling.

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    1. OldAFSargeMay 20, 2015 at 6:12 AM

      Not easy.

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    2. (not necessarily your) Uncle SkipMay 20, 2015 at 7:59 AM

      Simple, though.
      Only requires an attitude adjustment.

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    3. OldAFSargeMay 20, 2015 at 8:20 AM

      While that does work, sometimes the behavior of those around you has an impact as well. Then it's not that simple.

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    4. (not necessarily your) Uncle SkipMay 20, 2015 at 11:18 AM

      Nah... that's why it's not easy.

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    5. OldAFSargeMay 20, 2015 at 11:21 AM

      Heh, semantics bites me again. Of course, you're right.

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  3. joehMay 20, 2015 at 7:03 AM

    I don't know why so melancholy, but this is a wonderful post!!
    Hope all is well. In the meantime this "Picture and Poetry" Sarge is good stuff.

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    1. OldAFSargeMay 20, 2015 at 7:07 AM

      Thanks Joe.

      I do get melancholy from time to time. Yesterday was particularly bad.

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  4. Rev. PaulMay 20, 2015 at 8:27 AM

    We all get that way from time to time, Sarge. I've learned to just keep going, and keep myself preoccupied with what's at hand. That takes care of things.
    Hang in there.

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  5. juvatMay 20, 2015 at 8:38 AM

    Illegitimi non carborundum!

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  6. Bag BlogMay 20, 2015 at 10:01 AM

    Sometimes I am overwhelmed with the feeling that I want to run, leave, get out of here...But through the years I've learned that those are the times I need to stand.

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  7. snuffynyMay 20, 2015 at 10:52 AM

    The melancholy bug gets us all . . . at times.
    Here's something I wrote in a blog posting about the same thing:
    http://jmawelsh.blogspot.com/2011/07/20-may-09.html

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    1. OldAFSargeMay 20, 2015 at 11:23 AM

      Good stuff Snuffy. From time to time I do suffer from "old man's disease."

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  8. Kris, in New EnglandMay 20, 2015 at 11:46 AM

    Life...can beat a person down into the ground sometimes. Like Bag Blog, I have to fight the urge, on almost a weekly basis, to chuck it all in and flee. Life these days is a terrible grind, especially for good people. People who just want to put in a good day's work and go home to the safety and comfort of loved ones. It's all the crap in between that can get under your skin. Just keep on keeping on, Sarge.

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    1. OldAFSargeMay 20, 2015 at 12:28 PM

      Thanks Kris, I eventually will pull out of this slump.

      Sometimes I feel like David Ortiz in the spring, can't hit crap but I know things will improve.

      Of course, it didn't help that yesterday was cloudy and rainy.

      This is me, keepin' on!

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  9. hiswiserangelMay 20, 2015 at 3:44 PM

    Been there, still doing that.
    At a time when my friends kids are leaving the nest, going to college, getting jobs, falling in love, I'm facing the fact that the Cute Chicks will be mine for life. Their futures are fully in my hands, where they go, what they do, how they thrive. There are days when I really want to run away from it all, but I know I'm their best chance for a full and happy life, so I pull up my big girl panties, dry my tears and carry on. But the need to get away is always there, lurking in the shadows, waiting for a moment of overwhelming fear or weakness. What if I can't do it? What if I fail? Doesn't matter, I have to keep trying.
    So hugs, I know the feeling.

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  10. Ron SnyderMay 20, 2015 at 5:23 PM

    I was just telling a good friend earlier that there have been a few time since January when my physical challenges started that it was touch & go. For me I have to get out and be part of the woods, mountains, sea -Mother Nature. It continues to be a miracle to me what we have right outside our doors. Hope it keeps working.

    You have many friends thinking of you all the time Sarge, with good & positive thoughts. Is the world a better place with you in it, and are many people better off for having known you. Why yes, I think that is true. We meet people for a reason.

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    1. OldAFSargeMay 20, 2015 at 6:32 PM

      Thanks Ron. How are you doing by the way?

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    2. Ron SnyderMay 20, 2015 at 8:23 PM

      Thanks for asking. Still working on balance now that the pain is gone. Longest walk in four months is 3 miles (with many breaks during same). I am going to be back to my normal hiking and camping in the wonderful outdoors of NC by end of year, regardless of what it takes. Took me two years of hard work to walk again after breaking my foot six years ago and I am not going to let that effort go to waste!

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    3. OldAFSargeMay 21, 2015 at 4:42 AM

      Stay strong Ron. If anyone can do it, you can.

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  11. Ron SnyderMay 20, 2015 at 5:23 PM

    Photos were great BTW. :)

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  12. HMS DefiantMay 20, 2015 at 7:59 PM

    It looks like my comment was lost. Oh well.

    Be of good cheer! It's Hump Day!

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    1. OldAFSargeMay 21, 2015 at 4:41 AM

      Ah yes, Blogger is "helping,"

      Thanks Cap'n, things are better today.

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  13. SCOTTtheBADGERMay 20, 2015 at 10:39 PM

    Remember, you are Badger Approved! Not everyone can say that!

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